blessed with a BFP!
oh my gosh! I am 11 dpo, and I got a bfp! I am shaking. I am so excited! I cant believe it. I temped this morning. slept the whole night peacefully until 4:30. I temped, and that is an hour early, so I knew it was not accuarate. So I thought, what the heck, I will temp, peace of mind. And the first test, answer brand; came up light pink before the test was even done! then I tested with a cheap dollar store one. that was inconclusive.
I went to walmart. Bought a CBE-digital, baby big that says our little tiger, and a easter basket.
Tested on the digitla, it says PREGNANT!
So, I put the bibs in the basket, with the test that says pregnant in it too. Placed it on the toilet and waiting for Chris to wake.
WOW, I feel so blessed.
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Monday, September 10, 2007
4-3-2007
overanalyze
the wait is killing me again. I am 10dpo today. 8 dpo I had a temp drop and cramps the evening of 7dpo. and 9dpo a big temp drop. Today a drop. Arg, I just want to know. O am overanalyzing.
the wait is killing me again. I am 10dpo today. 8 dpo I had a temp drop and cramps the evening of 7dpo. and 9dpo a big temp drop. Today a drop. Arg, I just want to know. O am overanalyzing.
4-1-2007
Crazy time starts!gosh, spring is here. Starting this week I work 6 days a week until early june. Ewwww. And they are 10 hour plus day. bigger eww. I am not ready!
And of course, I hope I am KU this C. (am I crazy!?!?) I will figure it out if i am. Today I am 8dpo, last night I had skight cramps, odd for me; and today a temp dip. I am sort of daydreaming about being pregnant and having a december baby. Which is not good, I hate being sad when I am not. I am doing everything in my power not to look up what our due date will be. That just makes me sad.
And of course, I hope I am KU this C. (am I crazy!?!?) I will figure it out if i am. Today I am 8dpo, last night I had skight cramps, odd for me; and today a temp dip. I am sort of daydreaming about being pregnant and having a december baby. Which is not good, I hate being sad when I am not. I am doing everything in my power not to look up what our due date will be. That just makes me sad.
3-18-2007
a little sad
I just learned that a friend of my SIL, who also started TTC when we did is KU and due in september. I felt a little sad when I learned this.
I just learned that a friend of my SIL, who also started TTC when we did is KU and due in september. I felt a little sad when I learned this.
3-3-2007
bbt not going good
this C has been a tough one for temping. I dont think I have slept thru a single night yet! Temps are all over the place! Around O time, my temps were not all that pretty either. Grrr. At least I have my O date confidently narrowed down to 2cd's.
So, today is 7or 8 dpo. (I am not obsessing, I am observing! REALLY!) I woke up with mild AF like cramps, and now it is about 6 hours later, and they are back. In previous c's the only time I have had cramping is the day before AF showed. I pray that is not the case! I wont look into it too much either.... I cant! ~that would be obsessing~ which I am not allowed to do!
I just gotta be stong, to make it thru the next few days.... I can do it!
this C has been a tough one for temping. I dont think I have slept thru a single night yet! Temps are all over the place! Around O time, my temps were not all that pretty either. Grrr. At least I have my O date confidently narrowed down to 2cd's.
So, today is 7or 8 dpo. (I am not obsessing, I am observing! REALLY!) I woke up with mild AF like cramps, and now it is about 6 hours later, and they are back. In previous c's the only time I have had cramping is the day before AF showed. I pray that is not the case! I wont look into it too much either.... I cant! ~that would be obsessing~ which I am not allowed to do!
I just gotta be stong, to make it thru the next few days.... I can do it!
2-25-2007
Too cute.
back when we started TTC, actually before we started- so when we where talking about doing it. Chris said he did not want a baby born during deer hunting. he lives for deer hunting season.
All this C, I have known that we would be due during that time. but choose not to tell him. REally, what are the chances- well- it is 20%. and this is month 6 of TTC. so, why avoid it now? Last night, we were going to bd one more time... (I o'd yesterday- woohoo! finally, that flu pushed back my O 6 days!) Just before we bded- Chris said, wait a minute, started counting months... and said- no way! we would be due during rut. Then I said, what are the chances, this is our 6th month- why stop for this? He siad he had no idea we were at the 6 month mark. he did the math- we started first part of september.... 6 months! The cutie- he bded anyway!
I refuse too look up due dates anymore.... because that date sticks in my head and I dont want it too. So, no due dates till we are KU!
back when we started TTC, actually before we started- so when we where talking about doing it. Chris said he did not want a baby born during deer hunting. he lives for deer hunting season.
All this C, I have known that we would be due during that time. but choose not to tell him. REally, what are the chances- well- it is 20%. and this is month 6 of TTC. so, why avoid it now? Last night, we were going to bd one more time... (I o'd yesterday- woohoo! finally, that flu pushed back my O 6 days!) Just before we bded- Chris said, wait a minute, started counting months... and said- no way! we would be due during rut. Then I said, what are the chances, this is our 6th month- why stop for this? He siad he had no idea we were at the 6 month mark. he did the math- we started first part of september.... 6 months! The cutie- he bded anyway!
I refuse too look up due dates anymore.... because that date sticks in my head and I dont want it too. So, no due dates till we are KU!
2-17-2007
I was sick a few days this week with the flu. it wast fun!
and... I am waiting to O! seems to be no where in sight! Today is CD18, last C, I O'd on CD19. I really dont have any signs that it is close. I have heard that illness can delay O.
and... I am waiting to O! seems to be no where in sight! Today is CD18, last C, I O'd on CD19. I really dont have any signs that it is close. I have heard that illness can delay O.
2-9-2007
drama alert!
I frequent a ttc message board. Part of my thinks I should have never started going there because they obsess, and seem to be jealous people. But I have learned a lot.
Well, the message boards are broken into many catagories... 6 actually. I am on Just starting out. In the last few weeks I have been getting annoyed by sarcastic comments being posted when newbie get a bfp, or ask a repetitious question.... and the jealousy! whoa.
It is also so high school. One person is ballsy and says something, and her followers come along and add a comment.
Mid week, this all exploded. I dont even know exactly how it all happened, or why it exploded like it did. (however, it sort of felt like high school- with one group ganging up on me. I am tough I can take it). So, basically I said it, if you cant handly the newbie stuff, go find a new board! that is why there are so many.
well, basically it started with a prego gal posting a hello on JSO. Then the ring leader made a comment that was sarcasitc, and her followers all posted sarcastic stuff too. So I said, it is not big deal! it is a public board, if you are so sensitive, go find a new board! Then I was accused of calling them bitter, and kicking them off a board they have been on for 2 years... they have more right to be there... on and on...
So later that day, I posted a message saying why I made my comments. For weeks I have been listening to the sacastic junk- and of course go find a new board if you arent all giddy with excitment and dumb questions like newbie! And you guessed it... the ring leader had to post a comment about how I was mistaken... and it was so rude! A few people posted that they agreed with me, the boards have changed.
Well, icing on the cake! the board moderator came on and siad that I was right! each person should evaluate which board they should belong too. and if you dislike newbie questions, or newbie bfp's it is time to go.
With all that said. I know I am an outcast now.... they will treat me like crap when I go back. I feel good about what I said, because they were raining on the newbie parade!!!!
I have stayed off the boards since then, just to calm things down. I might just stay off for a long time.... I am done with the sarcasic remarks, and was getting annoyed easily. I dont need that! and they made me obsess, and think about my CD. I think I will be better off without the boards. If I need them, I can go back on and post a ?. I can change me name too if I want.
I frequent a ttc message board. Part of my thinks I should have never started going there because they obsess, and seem to be jealous people. But I have learned a lot.
Well, the message boards are broken into many catagories... 6 actually. I am on Just starting out. In the last few weeks I have been getting annoyed by sarcastic comments being posted when newbie get a bfp, or ask a repetitious question.... and the jealousy! whoa.
It is also so high school. One person is ballsy and says something, and her followers come along and add a comment.
Mid week, this all exploded. I dont even know exactly how it all happened, or why it exploded like it did. (however, it sort of felt like high school- with one group ganging up on me. I am tough I can take it). So, basically I said it, if you cant handly the newbie stuff, go find a new board! that is why there are so many.
well, basically it started with a prego gal posting a hello on JSO. Then the ring leader made a comment that was sarcasitc, and her followers all posted sarcastic stuff too. So I said, it is not big deal! it is a public board, if you are so sensitive, go find a new board! Then I was accused of calling them bitter, and kicking them off a board they have been on for 2 years... they have more right to be there... on and on...
So later that day, I posted a message saying why I made my comments. For weeks I have been listening to the sacastic junk- and of course go find a new board if you arent all giddy with excitment and dumb questions like newbie! And you guessed it... the ring leader had to post a comment about how I was mistaken... and it was so rude! A few people posted that they agreed with me, the boards have changed.
Well, icing on the cake! the board moderator came on and siad that I was right! each person should evaluate which board they should belong too. and if you dislike newbie questions, or newbie bfp's it is time to go.
With all that said. I know I am an outcast now.... they will treat me like crap when I go back. I feel good about what I said, because they were raining on the newbie parade!!!!
I have stayed off the boards since then, just to calm things down. I might just stay off for a long time.... I am done with the sarcasic remarks, and was getting annoyed easily. I dont need that! and they made me obsess, and think about my CD. I think I will be better off without the boards. If I need them, I can go back on and post a ?. I can change me name too if I want.
1-31-2007
dang! C6!Looks like Af showed just now. I did a good job not getting my hopes up and telling myself I am not KU.
I had spotting for 2 days. odd. never had that.
well, not much else to say. I am obviously not happy.
I had spotting for 2 days. odd. never had that.
well, not much else to say. I am obviously not happy.
1-25-2007
scrapcamp weekend coming up!
I am so excited! should get a ton of scrapbooking done. It will also help keep me distracted during my last week of waiting to find out if we are pregnant this month.
A ton of people on my message board have gotten BFP's this week. like 5? crazy! I hope the trend continues!
Today is CD25, 6dpo. I am happy I am temping, and OPKed. I got the hang of it after all- it is looking good.
I think I am doing great not symptom analyzing, and telling myself it did not happen this month.... I havent even looked up due date!
Since O was late... I am thinking my test dates will be 2/1 or 2/2 if no AF. lets hope! Oh, and I did O on friday! so the bding the night before should have been perfect! I did not need to stress after all!
I am so excited! should get a ton of scrapbooking done. It will also help keep me distracted during my last week of waiting to find out if we are pregnant this month.
A ton of people on my message board have gotten BFP's this week. like 5? crazy! I hope the trend continues!
Today is CD25, 6dpo. I am happy I am temping, and OPKed. I got the hang of it after all- it is looking good.
I think I am doing great not symptom analyzing, and telling myself it did not happen this month.... I havent even looked up due date!
Since O was late... I am thinking my test dates will be 2/1 or 2/2 if no AF. lets hope! Oh, and I did O on friday! so the bding the night before should have been perfect! I did not need to stress after all!
1-19-2007
I had bigger O pains today, we will see what the OPK says. it really doesnt matter I guess. chris is gone for the weekend, so there isnt much we can do but hope we got it already.
1-18-2007
I think i am finally O'ing! This is so exciting, I was being to wonder if I would! this is CD18! still not a +OPK.... I think that is odd.
just gotta wait a little longer. I have not really had much of O pains this C. Yesterday slight twinges, and today too. but not like the last 5 cycles.
just gotta wait a little longer. I have not really had much of O pains this C. Yesterday slight twinges, and today too. but not like the last 5 cycles.
1-14-2007
need strength
So, this recently I started temping and OPKing. Both have had ups and downs. For some reason, Fertility Friend said I ovulated on CD11. I dont think so! And my OPK's were not working properly. I emailed the company, turns out thier instructions were wrong. GRRR! now that I have proper instructions they work nice. DUH!
So I am quesioning my O date of 11th, even though I thought my OPK was a -, maybe it wasnt. Just gotta wait and see.
Chris and I agreed that we would bd every other day. I try to keep it fun, heck I think I work really hard at it. We want to bd EOD from CD8-24ish. So, I tried to initiate the bding tonight, he did not want to. Too tired. I feel rejected. It really should not matter, I dont have EWCM, did not get a + on my OPK.
There are so many things about TTC that are hard. Some things are unexpected, like DH not quite getting this TTC stuff, not quite understanding what is going on with your body.
I need to be strong, and patient. It will make this whole process alot more pleasant, and easier too.
So, this recently I started temping and OPKing. Both have had ups and downs. For some reason, Fertility Friend said I ovulated on CD11. I dont think so! And my OPK's were not working properly. I emailed the company, turns out thier instructions were wrong. GRRR! now that I have proper instructions they work nice. DUH!
So I am quesioning my O date of 11th, even though I thought my OPK was a -, maybe it wasnt. Just gotta wait and see.
Chris and I agreed that we would bd every other day. I try to keep it fun, heck I think I work really hard at it. We want to bd EOD from CD8-24ish. So, I tried to initiate the bding tonight, he did not want to. Too tired. I feel rejected. It really should not matter, I dont have EWCM, did not get a + on my OPK.
There are so many things about TTC that are hard. Some things are unexpected, like DH not quite getting this TTC stuff, not quite understanding what is going on with your body.
I need to be strong, and patient. It will make this whole process alot more pleasant, and easier too.
1-10-2007
prediction!
I have always gotten these "feelings" about things. Here is mine about when we will be KU...
Of course I really want it to happen in the next 3 months... Jan Feb and March we will have lots of time to BD, OPK, BBT... But I just have the feeling that it wont happen till April, May or even June. At that time I will be too busy to OPK, BBT, and wont really even care when I O.
Time will only tell!
I was also thinking... I know each month there is roughly a 20% chance of getting prego. I jst dont grasp that. I want to understand why... it just seems so low.
I have always gotten these "feelings" about things. Here is mine about when we will be KU...
Of course I really want it to happen in the next 3 months... Jan Feb and March we will have lots of time to BD, OPK, BBT... But I just have the feeling that it wont happen till April, May or even June. At that time I will be too busy to OPK, BBT, and wont really even care when I O.
Time will only tell!
I was also thinking... I know each month there is roughly a 20% chance of getting prego. I jst dont grasp that. I want to understand why... it just seems so low.
1-2-2007
Today I purchased a basal thermometer. hope that doesnt make me go crazy... and a 25 pack of OPK's- that I bought online, and will start at CD 10.
Tomorrow I leave for a convention for work. should be ok. I am not ready to see work people again. it was nice to not talk to them for a couple weeks. shhhh, dont tell them!
Tomorrow I leave for a convention for work. should be ok. I am not ready to see work people again. it was nice to not talk to them for a couple weeks. shhhh, dont tell them!
1-1-2007
CREEP!
AF totally creeped up on my. Today. So C4 was just 27 days. shortest yet, and totally unexpected.
I am going to BBT this C, and might get some OPK's... just to figure out what my body is doing. Attempt to anyway.
Good news again- No migraine! I havent had one for over a month! very excited about that. I am really convinced BCP were the cause of my migraines... it seems as I am getting back to normal I am gettting less migraines.
not much else to say. just surprised. oh, and Chris seemed just fine with me temping...
AF totally creeped up on my. Today. So C4 was just 27 days. shortest yet, and totally unexpected.
I am going to BBT this C, and might get some OPK's... just to figure out what my body is doing. Attempt to anyway.
Good news again- No migraine! I havent had one for over a month! very excited about that. I am really convinced BCP were the cause of my migraines... it seems as I am getting back to normal I am gettting less migraines.
not much else to say. just surprised. oh, and Chris seemed just fine with me temping...
12-31-2006
will power needed! and what was that spot?
Today is CD 27, guessing, I am 9-11DPO. I had a spot today... brown, not alot. Could it be implantation bleeding? or just a spot telling me AF is on the way? BAsed on my previous cycles, I think AF is due thursday. Wed and thursday I am going to a convention, so I dont want to test either of those days... I just have to be stong and not test the next 2 days, and wait for AF to show or not, then test friday. I did have one 28 day C, but that was right after coming off BCP... ahh... just have to wait! nothing more to do! Then only other time I spotted, was once the day before AF showed.
I pulled a silly again today. I feel off the couch. LOL. actually my foot caught this loop in my pants, and I fell. I landed hard on my Knees, and of course cried hard. Chris and Oliver (our dog) came running. Oliver cuddled up to me, and started shaking really hard. it was so cute, he could see I was hurt, and he felt sad.
well, Chris is home with me again tomorrow. right now we are chillin! it is great!
Today is CD 27, guessing, I am 9-11DPO. I had a spot today... brown, not alot. Could it be implantation bleeding? or just a spot telling me AF is on the way? BAsed on my previous cycles, I think AF is due thursday. Wed and thursday I am going to a convention, so I dont want to test either of those days... I just have to be stong and not test the next 2 days, and wait for AF to show or not, then test friday. I did have one 28 day C, but that was right after coming off BCP... ahh... just have to wait! nothing more to do! Then only other time I spotted, was once the day before AF showed.
I pulled a silly again today. I feel off the couch. LOL. actually my foot caught this loop in my pants, and I fell. I landed hard on my Knees, and of course cried hard. Chris and Oliver (our dog) came running. Oliver cuddled up to me, and started shaking really hard. it was so cute, he could see I was hurt, and he felt sad.
well, Chris is home with me again tomorrow. right now we are chillin! it is great!
12-22-2006
EWCM!
think I got it! I always thought I had it the last 4 months... but last night on the toilet paper was tons of it. it was clear slippery, did not fom a ball when rolled... and stretched big time. SO EXCITING!
Chris has a bed head cold, so he did not want to BD last night. But I convinced him by telling him in a few days I will have his cold.. and I cant take many drugs for it. So he best drug and and just do it! or me- LOL. And he agreed. :-)
I feel pretty good about this, since getting close to fertile time we were able to BD on CDs 14,16, and 17. Today is 18. Now I just have to patiently wait till next year!
think I got it! I always thought I had it the last 4 months... but last night on the toilet paper was tons of it. it was clear slippery, did not fom a ball when rolled... and stretched big time. SO EXCITING!
Chris has a bed head cold, so he did not want to BD last night. But I convinced him by telling him in a few days I will have his cold.. and I cant take many drugs for it. So he best drug and and just do it! or me- LOL. And he agreed. :-)
I feel pretty good about this, since getting close to fertile time we were able to BD on CDs 14,16, and 17. Today is 18. Now I just have to patiently wait till next year!
12-20-2006
things I find frustrating about TTC
So you plan, sex will happen on these days at this time. You even create a pact that you will do it, no exceptions! great! but sometime there is a failure to launch the swimmers.
O pains. what in the world do they mean? will I ovulate soon? Am I right now? Or did I already?
Cervical Mucus- should I really be removing it to look at it? dont I need that stuff? And what exactly is it telling me!?!
Cervical position- Tell me, what exactly am I feeling for. I can feel it, and notice when it feels higher and different... but cant figure out if it is open or closed.
Should I really be poking my cooter this much to figure these things out? Am I killing the swimmers? Or removing valuable CM?
Should I OPK or not... Should I temp or not.... decisions!
Chris, he is so laid back with his "it is what it is". I know that, but I want to help things along if I can!
Is making babies a test? Like- if you can handle this process you can handle a baby. Am I failing the test?
60% of my daily thoughts, (and dreams at night), are making babies. Am I fertile? I am KU? When will I be KU? Why are we not KU yet?
---------------------------------------One thought helps calm all these things going on in my head. I need to pray for patience! And trust that god will help us through this!
Today i have the O pains! they started yesterday, but quite a bit of pain on my left side today. I also woke up and discovered what I think was EWCM??? Or not, it may have been a little thick.. Chris had a failure to launch problem this morning... so after work today we will attempt again! And back to the planning part- we will do it again tomorrow!
So you plan, sex will happen on these days at this time. You even create a pact that you will do it, no exceptions! great! but sometime there is a failure to launch the swimmers.
O pains. what in the world do they mean? will I ovulate soon? Am I right now? Or did I already?
Cervical Mucus- should I really be removing it to look at it? dont I need that stuff? And what exactly is it telling me!?!
Cervical position- Tell me, what exactly am I feeling for. I can feel it, and notice when it feels higher and different... but cant figure out if it is open or closed.
Should I really be poking my cooter this much to figure these things out? Am I killing the swimmers? Or removing valuable CM?
Should I OPK or not... Should I temp or not.... decisions!
Chris, he is so laid back with his "it is what it is". I know that, but I want to help things along if I can!
Is making babies a test? Like- if you can handle this process you can handle a baby. Am I failing the test?
60% of my daily thoughts, (and dreams at night), are making babies. Am I fertile? I am KU? When will I be KU? Why are we not KU yet?
---------------------------------------One thought helps calm all these things going on in my head. I need to pray for patience! And trust that god will help us through this!
Today i have the O pains! they started yesterday, but quite a bit of pain on my left side today. I also woke up and discovered what I think was EWCM??? Or not, it may have been a little thick.. Chris had a failure to launch problem this morning... so after work today we will attempt again! And back to the planning part- we will do it again tomorrow!
12-19-2006
to not do it
I did not buy any OPK's last night. I have a good mindset right now, and am enjoying the TTC process. So, i decided against it.
Regardless, we would do the exact same thing this month whether or not we OPK. So, we might as well enjoy it and just let things happen!
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In a perfectly planned world
My pregnancy would happen like this:
I would be due in December, and be able to take my time off paid, and have no worries about work. I say this because my job is seasonal, I get lots of paid time off in the winter. And in the spring summer and fall my plate is full!
Knowing what I know now- in my 4th C of TTC. Miscarriges happen often, and I am happy we did not wait until late winter thinking getting prego would be a breeze. However, I thought we would be KU by now. If we do get KU this month- we would be due in Sept. so.. March would be the month to get KU and be due in Dec. Which is going to be more difficult considering I work more hours.....
So, what I am thinking, is I have faith that God will lead us and let things happen as they will. So, the world isnt perfectly planned according to how I want things to be. Which is OK!
I did not buy any OPK's last night. I have a good mindset right now, and am enjoying the TTC process. So, i decided against it.
Regardless, we would do the exact same thing this month whether or not we OPK. So, we might as well enjoy it and just let things happen!
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In a perfectly planned world
My pregnancy would happen like this:
I would be due in December, and be able to take my time off paid, and have no worries about work. I say this because my job is seasonal, I get lots of paid time off in the winter. And in the spring summer and fall my plate is full!
Knowing what I know now- in my 4th C of TTC. Miscarriges happen often, and I am happy we did not wait until late winter thinking getting prego would be a breeze. However, I thought we would be KU by now. If we do get KU this month- we would be due in Sept. so.. March would be the month to get KU and be due in Dec. Which is going to be more difficult considering I work more hours.....
So, what I am thinking, is I have faith that God will lead us and let things happen as they will. So, the world isnt perfectly planned according to how I want things to be. Which is OK!
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