14 week appointment update

I just returned from my appointment- HB was 162bpm. I lost 5 lbs, and my dr. has cut me back to 8 hour work days, 40 hours per week. He said the amount of hours I work and am totally of my feet that I cant work so much anymore. So, I am finishing out this week and next week I will start 8 hour days like a normal human being.

In just 4 weeks in our ultra sound already!

I am having stretchy pains. Had them really bad last time, moderately bad this time.

I find it to be hilarious when they ask me at ever appointment "is anyone at home trying to control you are hurt you?" I have to laugh, because a 17 month old is both controlling me and hurting me!

oh what to do

About work of course. I'm not exactly happy. I have to work so many weekends that it is hard for me to have any family time. Also, over half of my shifts are closing so I dont get home until after 8pm. Night time routine is messed and B isnt sleeping well.

This, combined with other things to do with my job are causing extra stress on my marriage. I cant just leave when my shift is over. I'm manager and often there are things that just need to get finished up before I leave. This makes Chris mad. And of course all the weekends I work make him mad too.

Obviously I want to be fair to work too. My heart really isnt in this job anymore. I am not that person that goes the extra hundred miles for her job, I am just doing what I have to do to get the job done and get home to where my heart really is.

To top it all off, this has been the most stressful year that I have ever had. (and this is my 6th season) We are too lean! I am no longer into manual labor sort of work and that is what most of my days consist of because there is no one else to haul things around. 30yo, pregnant mommy.... just isnt working for me anymore. It is too exhausting.

I really hate making this sort of decisions. I used to LOVE my job. I think that is why it is so hard to decide what to do. I think I would be an excellent SAHM too.

cause and effect

Brady is so interesting lately! He will purposely hit me or his daddy so then he can give us a hug and a kiss. He will spill some milk on the floor so he can get a towel out and clean it. He will even spill Olivers water dish so he can clean it up! He will dump out the laundry basket so he can put the clothes back into it.

His little brain is constantly spinning!

Brady has some pretty cute words that he is obsessed with. Socks. He loves to bring you socks, take them off, carry them around. It is quite cute. Duck is another. Very cute! However chickens are ducks to him right now. :-) Outside. That has to be a favorite word! And his favorite place to be. Lucky for him he will spend lots of time outside this summer since his daddy is building a garage.

Other exciting news- I have been feeling better and a bit less tired. :-) Still pooped often and love to sleep any chance I get- but not nearly as exhausted as I had been. I also think I have felt the baby move a couple times. Not sure if that is possible at just over 12 weeks.... but..... I really think I did. I will continue to moniter the situation. :-)

if I get injured, maybe I can sleep?

I think I am loony when I think this sort of stuff. Such as driving to work.... well if I get into an accident at least I can get so sleep. Or if I get hurt at work maybe I will get some time off and get to sleep.

Am I the only loony one out here that is sleep deprived and wishes pain and injury to get some rest?

first ultra sound!

Looks like another busy baby! We figured I was 11 wks, 5 days yesterday and this baby was so active that she could hardly take her measurements.

We are going with a due date of 11/24.

this damn economy

One thing I think of often when I hear of companies laying people off is that the people left still on the job are expected to pick up so much more work and get nothing in return... except for keeping thier jobs. No raises, even pay cuts. But they have to run thier asses off to keep up with all the work they have to do. Insanity. Chances are some businesses may lose some good employees because of the stresses they feel.

first doctors appointment!

I went in for my first visit yesterday, work has been busy so not many people have gotten updates- sorry!

It was long, it was the history/intake... that good stuff. Heard the heartbeat, it was 160 bpm. That was the highlight! We are not sure on the dating, the typical calander chart says my EDD is 11/21, but I disagree and think it is 11/26-11/28. Nursing thru off my cycle, so things just dont add up to me and to the Dr. So monday will be an ultra sound to hopefully get a bit closer.

My Dr. encourages a VBAC- (vaginal birth after cesarian). I was very surprised, most clinic/hospitals discourage it, some dont even allow it. So now I need to ponder that. I am also still taking my anti-depressant, it is safe in early pg, but there are some risks later in pg, so that is one more thing I am pondering.

I like my new Dr. My last one was a "rent a doc", so I had to get a new one. He seems good, we seem like a good fit.

was that it, ms?

I am guessing I am 10.5 wks. for the past 3 days I have felt well- but the week prior I had been quite icky feeling and having some food problems. Seriously, if that was morning sickness that was nothing! I still have mild evening nausea- but that has been managable. this is way easier then it was the first time!