About work of course. I'm not exactly happy. I have to work so many weekends that it is hard for me to have any family time. Also, over half of my shifts are closing so I dont get home until after 8pm. Night time routine is messed and B isnt sleeping well.
This, combined with other things to do with my job are causing extra stress on my marriage. I cant just leave when my shift is over. I'm manager and often there are things that just need to get finished up before I leave. This makes Chris mad. And of course all the weekends I work make him mad too.
Obviously I want to be fair to work too. My heart really isnt in this job anymore. I am not that person that goes the extra hundred miles for her job, I am just doing what I have to do to get the job done and get home to where my heart really is.
To top it all off, this has been the most stressful year that I have ever had. (and this is my 6th season) We are too lean! I am no longer into manual labor sort of work and that is what most of my days consist of because there is no one else to haul things around. 30yo, pregnant mommy.... just isnt working for me anymore. It is too exhausting.
I really hate making this sort of decisions. I used to LOVE my job. I think that is why it is so hard to decide what to do. I think I would be an excellent SAHM too.